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Genuine Thoughts
I've come to the realization that I really haven't truly posted anything really blog worthy in the many months that i've had this blog so I feel like now is the time to do so. I feel like I owe it to my blog to actually put down something that speaks about me and isn't simply rambling about hip-hop, cats, or the nfl, haha. But I almost feel like i've taken too long to come to this conclusion because all of my thoughts, ideas, feelings, and everything inside my head have been building and building and now there's almost too much to remember or even record in writing.
Sometimes I wish I would write down things that pop into my head so that I could remember them but I lack both the motivation and commitment to really put any kind of energy or effort aside to do that. I feel like I have a lot of time of my hands on a given day to think about things and run through different scenarios that either happened or I image happening. I often go through entire dialogues between myself and others just trying to create a blueprint for what I would say if it were to actually happen in real life. Maybe I stress a lot over what I will say to others so I feel the need to prepare ahead of time, this seems strange to me but nonetheless it is a part of who I am, im sure lots of people do the same.
A lot of the things that go on around me have strange effects on me as far as my thought process and how I go about doing things. I get a strange almost sick feeling in my stomach when I hear people discuss their own personal issues or the issues of others. It creates a feeling of tension and unease in the air that doesn't sit well with me and I feel like just running away from it. If I had a list of rules to follow, not getting involved in the issues of others would be damn near #1. Knowing another person's situation and issues rearranges my perspective of that person that I had previously built with my own personal knowledge of them, and adding these other elements causes things to get shook around and put all out of place. Like after I learn more about their problems I can't see them the same way.
I wish I could listen in on people when they talk about me, just so that I could get a better understanding of what I project onto others. All too often have glaring issues and flaws that they themselves are blind to but to others they are glaring and obvious. I wonder if I have any of those glaring flaws that I am completely oblivious of. I truly wish to understand them if I do and would have no problem if people made me aware of them. I'm not a person who is easily offended by others, I don't take things personally most of the time and I encourage everyone to be as open as they want around me because I do wish to know what your thoughts and feelings are. It also may be my acceptance of other's words that sometimes leads to me saying things without really considering the effect they may have on others. I need to keep in mind that not everyone takes things as lightly as myself.
See I already feel like i've put down quite a few thoughts yet its only the tip of the iceberg of things i'd like to express. I could literally go on for hours, maybe even days going through every little intricate corner of my brain, and explaining my thought process and justify my actions, yet that is really not possible at this point in time, or maybe period.
More than anything in the world I would like to fully understand how the minds of other individuals work, just to see things from their perspective and see the world the way they see it. Not necessarily to learn to be more accepting of other people's situations, but just to learn the reasons behind people's actions and understand their unique thought process and how their mind works. I feel like my mind works in the strangest ways and i'd be overjoyed to see what kind of things i'd discover if I went into the minds of others. Because only you can understand your own mind and the forces behind all of your feelings, instincts, and actions. I feel like understanding others completely would help clear up all of the little signals that all too often get misinterpreted whether it be the wording of a sentence, the tone of voice, a facial expression, or a hand gesture that may be taken for something it really isn't. Even in face to face one on one conversation its nearly impossible to see what is behind their words and what message they are trying to convey. I feel like so many issues stem from miscommunication or people interpreting something the wrong way. It's something that is completely natural and nobody is at fault, yet so many awful things can propagate from it. I see this as something completely unnecessary yet impossible to fix, because without TRULY understanding how somebody's mind works, there will always be things that get lost in translation and problems that arise.
But unfortunately that's just reality and something that all of us must deal with and accept. Being aware of these things is really the only thing that can partially help us deal with this.
I understand that I really have no business trying to preach my understanding of the human condition, so just consider this my opinion of something that I have picked up on. You can agree or disagree with me, these are not facts. I feel as though I could keep writing for days but I have to stop at this moment.
Sometimes I wish I would write down things that pop into my head so that I could remember them but I lack both the motivation and commitment to really put any kind of energy or effort aside to do that. I feel like I have a lot of time of my hands on a given day to think about things and run through different scenarios that either happened or I image happening. I often go through entire dialogues between myself and others just trying to create a blueprint for what I would say if it were to actually happen in real life. Maybe I stress a lot over what I will say to others so I feel the need to prepare ahead of time, this seems strange to me but nonetheless it is a part of who I am, im sure lots of people do the same.
A lot of the things that go on around me have strange effects on me as far as my thought process and how I go about doing things. I get a strange almost sick feeling in my stomach when I hear people discuss their own personal issues or the issues of others. It creates a feeling of tension and unease in the air that doesn't sit well with me and I feel like just running away from it. If I had a list of rules to follow, not getting involved in the issues of others would be damn near #1. Knowing another person's situation and issues rearranges my perspective of that person that I had previously built with my own personal knowledge of them, and adding these other elements causes things to get shook around and put all out of place. Like after I learn more about their problems I can't see them the same way.
I wish I could listen in on people when they talk about me, just so that I could get a better understanding of what I project onto others. All too often have glaring issues and flaws that they themselves are blind to but to others they are glaring and obvious. I wonder if I have any of those glaring flaws that I am completely oblivious of. I truly wish to understand them if I do and would have no problem if people made me aware of them. I'm not a person who is easily offended by others, I don't take things personally most of the time and I encourage everyone to be as open as they want around me because I do wish to know what your thoughts and feelings are. It also may be my acceptance of other's words that sometimes leads to me saying things without really considering the effect they may have on others. I need to keep in mind that not everyone takes things as lightly as myself.
See I already feel like i've put down quite a few thoughts yet its only the tip of the iceberg of things i'd like to express. I could literally go on for hours, maybe even days going through every little intricate corner of my brain, and explaining my thought process and justify my actions, yet that is really not possible at this point in time, or maybe period.
More than anything in the world I would like to fully understand how the minds of other individuals work, just to see things from their perspective and see the world the way they see it. Not necessarily to learn to be more accepting of other people's situations, but just to learn the reasons behind people's actions and understand their unique thought process and how their mind works. I feel like my mind works in the strangest ways and i'd be overjoyed to see what kind of things i'd discover if I went into the minds of others. Because only you can understand your own mind and the forces behind all of your feelings, instincts, and actions. I feel like understanding others completely would help clear up all of the little signals that all too often get misinterpreted whether it be the wording of a sentence, the tone of voice, a facial expression, or a hand gesture that may be taken for something it really isn't. Even in face to face one on one conversation its nearly impossible to see what is behind their words and what message they are trying to convey. I feel like so many issues stem from miscommunication or people interpreting something the wrong way. It's something that is completely natural and nobody is at fault, yet so many awful things can propagate from it. I see this as something completely unnecessary yet impossible to fix, because without TRULY understanding how somebody's mind works, there will always be things that get lost in translation and problems that arise.
But unfortunately that's just reality and something that all of us must deal with and accept. Being aware of these things is really the only thing that can partially help us deal with this.
I understand that I really have no business trying to preach my understanding of the human condition, so just consider this my opinion of something that I have picked up on. You can agree or disagree with me, these are not facts. I feel as though I could keep writing for days but I have to stop at this moment.
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